I close my eyes and I’m there: a moment full of sound and fury and signifying … everything.
Bullets flying everywhere, smoke grenades making it difficult to see, M-203 grenade launcher and Mag heavy machine gun doing their merciless work tearing up the top of the hill we were running towards. And then, in the middle of it all, my gun stopped firing. I’m fast walking to stay in line, up the hill not knowing what is waiting at the top but knowing the men are depending on me to lead the way. There’s no time to think about the order of what to do, how to fix the gun or go down on one knee to better avoid incoming fire.
So I act without thinking, and hours later when I go over it all in my head I grasp the enormity of that moment when, without even thinking, I instinctively slammed the cartridge, realized that wouldn’t fix the problem, switched cartridges, hit the slide release and started firing again, all in just a few seconds.
Back in basic training, how many times did Samal (Sergeant) Micha scream, yell and terrorize us until we got it right? How many times had I been forced to get up, run around the hill and do it all over again until I got it perfect? How many times on guard duty, when no one was looking, had I practiced with an empty cartridge until I got it down pat, terrified I would lose my weekend pass if I did not have it perfect by the end of the week?
I am sure that sergeant has no idea that his efforts saved my life, but I have little doubt they did; a second on a run up a hill with an empty cartridge can be an awfully long time and in thinking about it later the fact that I could deal with it without even thinking about it may well have saved my life or the lives of those next to me. He succeeded in teaching us to reduce a series of decisions and actions to pure instinct, and force of habit. And a habit can be an extremely powerful force.
This week’s parsha of Vaeschanan is a Jewish powerhouse containing as it does both the repetition of the Ten Commandments (repeated by Moshe to the second generation about to enter the land of Israel) as well as the first paragraph of the Shema.
And hidden in that first paragraph of the Shema is a powerful verse:
“And you shall repeat them (these words of Torah) to your children, and speak to them, when you sit in your home and when you walk on the road and when you lie down, and when you arise.” (Devarim 6:7)
The Hebrew word for repeating used here, ve’shinantem, which seems to come from the word shnei (or twice), implies that we are meant to repeatedly share these words with our children whenever and wherever we are. We enjoy reading new books and discovering new ideas, but the Torah here is reminding us that there is a value to making sure that we constantly review that which we already know.
What is the value of this repetition and review, and why does this seem to be the methodology of choice for teaching our children?
The Rambam (Maimonides), in his Hilchot Deot (1:7) discusses how to make the character traits he espouses a part of life. Once a person understands the principle of finding the middle ground and achieving a healthy balance in his or her character, he or she must then act in this manner “again and again … until there is no longer any burden to the activity.”
In other words, the Rambam is defining a habit. Something becomes a habit when you have repeated it enough times so that it is no longer a burden; at that point, suggests the Rambam, you no longer have to work to do it, and you don’t even have to think about it — you own it.
Whether it is the daily page of Talmud we study, or the decision to stand up for an elderly person on a bus, there is actually a metric, an exact point or number of times something is repeated at which point it becomes a habit which is easily done without thinking.
During a stopover in the airport in Amsterdam, I was sitting in the huge departures hall waiting for my connection home to Israel. I had a few hours till my flight and Amsterdam’s Schiphol airport is a magnificent facility. But I was tired and had some work to do so I found a seat and opened up my laptop, when I noticed a fellow who had been on my flight from the States sitting near me and we exchanged a smile. A moment later I noticed he was doing a rather odd thing: he was peeling off his trousers and shirt right there in the public hall!
It transpired he was stripping down into his running clothes and he asked me if I would mind watching his bags, after which he took off across the hall and began his exercise run. I watched with admiration as he came back into view some ten minutes later and repeated the process a number of times until he had done his hour run. When he was finished cooling off and stretching we struck up a conversation and I told him how impressed I was that he had planned to exercise even in transit, to which he responded: “I run every day; can’t live without it!” He had made his running a habit!
The experts say, on average, it takes 30 repetitions to make something a habit, and while the exact numeric can depend both on the particular person and the activity one is trying to acquire, imagine the things that would be valuable to transform into a habit.
They say it is healthy to drink five glasses of water a day. Imagine if for 30 days we had six small instead of three large meals a day and drank a full glass of water before each meal and this became a habit — how much healthier would we be? And imagine if for the same 30 days we practiced a moment of pure gratitude (saying the Modeh Ani prayer?) right after the first glass of water each day: how much healthier would we be psychologically after 30 days?
Now imagine if for the same 30 days we studied one teaching (mishna) from Pirkei Avot or one tidbit in Maimonides’ Hilchot Deot, a magnificent system of character development, for three minutes right after that glass of water and moment of gratitude, how much spiritually healthier would we be each day.
The most powerful messages we share with ourselves and with those we love are the ones we review until we own them.
So ask yourself a simple question: Thirty days from now as we approach Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur, what do we want to really own? And practice that diligently each day until then and see what happens!
Shabbat shalom from Jerusalem.